Plethora

Thinking back to the old days
I’ve always had responsibilities along the way
Unchosen and unspoken they were always understood
I’ve had a lot put on my shoulders and not always good
I have worry for many of those around me
Unneeded stress that has built up plenty
Losses have been suffered so my role shifts
It seems I’ve been meant to always be the gift
I give and I give, which may be why I feel empty
So much expected of me, but it’s just who I am naturally
Many others putting themselves in situations unknown
It just so happens I’ve been there for a portion in which they’ve grown
So I adopt the notion of caring for who they are
And rather not see them acquire any scars
Physical or emotional this world takes its toll
Never know what the next second or day will unfold
Irrational behaviors taken so some can elevate
It’s sad to think that some actually thrive from hate
I’m drawn to those who have a passion that’s great
One that expresses purpose and moral traits
While I sit back and restrict myself alone
The others confuse the tactic because they only focus on their own
Sacrifices have been made that aren’t public
Yet still more is expected because they want a lift
Selfishness seems to be prolific
Which is unfortunate since the results are horrific
Contemplating the next move and if I need a little time
What can I do to save some sanity, but still produce shine
I can’t shake the feeling of needing to protect
Maybe I spread myself too thin, it’s hard to detect
People saying I need to do this or that
When they themselves can’t even face the facts
It gets exhausting being the guide to the solution
Always being looked to for a sense of resolution
Not saying that I’m ungrateful to be used in this manner
Just many seem to take what I offer for granted to reach their own glamour
Given what gives me life it’s hard to avoid the needs
When someone is in trouble I feel obligated to help them succeed
It’s the double edge sword of the choice and it’s hard to balance
No matter what transpires there will always be a challenge

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Collision

Mixed signals happen all the time
Smiling one second then denying the shine
What is it that was done to make a change
Where was the transition to make you stray

If nothing is communicated how do we proceed
You still act the same on the surface, but not behind the scenes
All the kindness and compliments then no recognition
When should I be concerned at what stage of progression

That’s why I don’t delve too deep, it isn’t sane
Keeping to myself and in the truth gives the only gains
Hard to get connected and stay in semblance of cohesion
When the thoughts of the other person seem to breed treason

Putting in the effort to build you up seems to have crumbled down
I provide you all the smiles and then in return I have to frown
I guess that’s life you live and you learn, I thought you were different
Just goes to show the majority of society these days still prefers being selfish

Journey

What is hope without love in the brain
What are friends without memories being made
What is truth without learning along the way
What is life without others involved in your day

Many questions and contradictions on the Earth
Just know your story has some worth
Nothing can compare to who you are
Because nobody else has your scars

No matter what, everyone has issues
Pain is part of the process so don’t let it surprise you
With gain there is loss, but it comes at what cost
The healing is always free with the gift from the cross

Let your experiences speak inspiration
Let joy shine bright in all situations
Let your words reflection compassion
Let kindness flow within all your actions

Need or Greed

A lot of heartbreak going on these days
With many treating relationships as if it’s a game
It’s sad to hear about all the charades
Since so many are suffering as a result of the shames
Nobody taking responsibility for the chatter
Male or female it doesn’t even matter
Since they don’t enact what it is they’re after
Just rather complain about the way things are shattered
Instead of helping to change the culture
They’d rather continue to get picked at by another vulture
So quick to rush into the next
I’m curious if anyone truly has self respect
If you give so freely that which should be saved
What is left to commit to if that’s their only reason to stay
Patience obviously needs to grow
Awareness and understanding need to flow
These “needs” that many focus on
Aren’t worth your constant dips into depression

Pulse

A thread is all you need to make a pattern
So when times are tough stick with those who matter
Don’t try to go outside the lines
Keep holding tight to what’s right on the inside

There is always hope in tomorrow
For it begins a new day to move away from your sorrow
Letting go sometimes is the hardest thing
Especially if the one who hurts you the most is wearing a ring

Struggle is part of any process
The mountains and valleys help create progress
Without a test you never have a chance to build
So stick with this life and exercise your will

Tied together

There comes a choice for most
It can result in pure elation or make you roast
The time for engagement is the beginning
Many at the time expect nothing but winning

The facts remain people change
Nobody wakes up the next day the same
A ring to symbolize the new connection
But a lifetime ahead to possibly go different directions

Relationships take time to build
So be sure that you maintain the proper will
Because if there is the slightest doubt
There’s no issue with waiting it out

You have to know that both sides are strong
Otherwise the bond can break at the slightest wrong
It takes two to make things work
One side isn’t meant to just be there for perks

If only many more focused on the depths
Perhaps many more marriages wouldn’t meet their deaths
The engagement begins the process of promise
And vows need to represent the definition of honest

Choice

They say you can’t pick your family
But, my parents picked me
There is truth to the saying
Since I didn’t have a say in the things

Adopted and introduced to two new siblings
It’s been awhile now, the numbers are adding
Family for the most part isn’t chosen
Until you’re ready to get your own in motion

Friends are what most of us actually get to pick
With an eye to promote time in those relationships
When it comes to starting that next chapter
Commitment and loyalty are what we’re after

The notion of giving up shouldn’t exist
Being there throughout needs to be the promise
Just like the support of a family or a friend
Enhance the best you’ve ever had choosing to give your all till the end

Dark Days

It’s all the same… we’re livin’ in these dark days

I’ve encountered many women
No matter how much you respect them
They’ll flock to the dudes who throw the most money
Then they wonder why they’re left feelin’ empty

I feel like I’m in a library
Goin’ through books with different covers
Flippin’ the pages and the content is all the same to me
I’d expect more variety, but it seems hard to discover

Why do they consciously go after what they say they don’t like
Why do they give attention to the types they bad mouth constantly
It all really puzzles me, because it’s as if they’re all alike
No matter the background, upbringing, or country

It’s all the same… we’re livin’ in these dark days

You mean to tell me that objectivity trumps positivity
You mean to tell me that a gentleman gets overlooked for someone creepy
It’s all just silly that it happens over and over again
The nice guys finish last no matter the time… future, past, or present

Doesn’t even have to be for meaningful relationships
It’s even in the aspect of simple friendships
Crazy to think how this world has changed
People claim it’s greater, but it’s vastly deranged

I simply can’t understand the thoughts in their heads
I know it’s something that is best left unsaid
I’m just continuously disappointed in the discrepancy of the culture
I’ll never change, it isn’t in my nature

It’s all the same… we’re livin’ in these dark days

Ventilation

I’ll never have the opportunity to hold my own child
Since this world is messed up with no virgins for miles and miles
It’s not just them it’s me, I’m just so fed up mentally

No judging, your business is your choice
When it comes to personal matchmaking though I have a voice
Been a straight edge since day one
And I’ve still been able to enjoy mass amounts of fun

Some require a little extra boost
For them though it’s what makes them lose
Not going to settle, it isn’t my style
I gave up the idea of marriage going back now awhile

Still to this day I get the questions
Just bounce, I’m fed up with those conversations
You introduce me to a Christian virgin above 23
I’ll call you both liars since the age for sex is lowered for the ladies

With each breath I maintain a rage
Like the Hulk constantly angry to keep it caged
I’m a nice guy, raised a gentleman
Never would I say something explicitly negative

However, I’m not afraid to state the facts
People want to poke me to see how I react
A little of this and a little of that
No woman for me, I’m solo… it’s been a nice chat

I despise the lies and expectations
They want to bring up the discussion
Just to be confused with how the world really works
I don’t need to explain myself further I’m not interested in the perks

I’ve seen confidence, beauty, and plenty of worth
But the core 5 things just can’t be found on this Earth
Perhaps I was brought this far for a reason
The reason I’ve stated already to remain single no matter the season

Nobody seems to hear it though as if they’re not ready
Just because I’m aging doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy a life that’s steady
If it was God’s will for me to be a husband
I believe some choices of mine already ruined that plan
Regardless, He’d see it through if it was supposed to happen

Far in the past now where those memories belong
No need to try to replay it in my head like a catchy song
It’s hard at times to look forward not knowing your legacy
Living a life with purpose isn’t always easy

Many want to cop out and blame others or God above
I don’t need that outlet I’m more than man enough
To own up to my decisions and hold true to His wishes
Responsibility takes many shapes, but so do different ambitions

Refraining from the temptations was quite a daunting task
Which is why I have my certain standards that will always last
Enjoy your relationships and treat them with great seriousness
Since they aren’t guaranteed and many these days don’t result in success

Too many focused on themselves and being flirty
Leaving all sorts of openings for affairs and adultery
Each and every time it is sad to see, so how can I trust
It’s just better to do what I’ve done and avoid this relationship stuff

In this day and age love needs to pull out ahead
With that being said, I’m referring to the true definition
Temporary pleasures aren’t what make things great
It’s the depths of emotional connection over time between two mind states

If you’ve found that lifeline, I applaud your discovery
Some search a lifetime without any, forcing themselves into recovery
I’m well aware every person has their own journey
Just wish more would acknowledge that fact as I enjoy my own without worry

NRNS

I may catch a lot of hate
That’s fine, that’s great
It isn’t easy bein’ right
But well worth the fight

You know me, I say only in marriage
With many, they’ll just disparage
That’s fine, I realize difference
Everyone has free will insistence

Regardless we can all agree
There shouldn’t be sex without that respect degree
So many voice how they’ve been used
Or mistreated and at times mentally abused

It’s a vicious cycle this sexual craze
With everyone scramblin’ through this maze
It leaves many in a haze
Focused on one thing as they steadily gaze

I’m tired of hearin’ the complaints
When it was their choice to taint
Their special gift
Through means that are illegitimate

It isn’t so much the whining
As it is the stupidity and timing
Actions speak louder than words
So if you don’t get respect expect the absurd

Just because someone says one thing
Doesn’t mean you should submit willingly
There are more lies to acquire pleasure
Than you will ever be able to measure

If one can’t bother to commit
You can bet their intent isn’t legit
So many aspects to a relationship
Why focus on sex when so much more is relevant

Many these days intertwine before they kiss
If you look at a target, that’s clearly a miss
The switch needs to be flipped
Back to romance, chivalry, and courtship

No need for unwanted pregnancies and disease
Or the development to be in the realm of cheat
So many are depleted and relationships ruined
All because sex was willy nilly, not knowin’ what they’re doin’

If you don’t get respect, why give sex
Somethin’ so special, somethin’ so complex
There’s no reason to sell yourself short
Maintain your integrity, no need for the export

But let’s be real for a second
Many just don’t have self respect
Which leaves cracks in their dignity
Allowin’ for the messes of insanity

No respect… No sex
It’s a simple concept
Even though our views may be different on when
That principle should still apply over and over again

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