Concern

Many people think she has it all
Trying to hit her up for the call
Wondering how she could be single
So they continue the efforts to mingle

Their primary concern is the look she presents
When they have no clue what’s going on in her head
Struggling to wake up each day
As the momentum of depression has its way

Still looking pleasant with a beautiful essence
But you can’t always believe the surface suggestion
The realness is what lies beneath the initial impression
So take the time to realize the entirety of a person

She puts on a good show for those around her
Even though her thoughts continue to burn
It’s not easy being at the center of a whirlwind of emotion
Seeing everything spin out of control with so much commotion

As I sit back and view from afar
I just hope she can hear my kind remarks
I hope they can reach the storm she’s in
Before another layer of her confidence thins

Pulse

A thread is all you need to make a pattern
So when times are tough stick with those who matter
Don’t try to go outside the lines
Keep holding tight to what’s right on the inside

There is always hope in tomorrow
For it begins a new day to move away from your sorrow
Letting go sometimes is the hardest thing
Especially if the one who hurts you the most is wearing a ring

Struggle is part of any process
The mountains and valleys help create progress
Without a test you never have a chance to build
So stick with this life and exercise your will

Submersion

Some people express the thought of genius
As I’m stuck down in the depths of my imagination
I squander certain opportunities, they’re dismissed
Because of personal choice in regards to premonition
Swimming in the never ending sea of resistance
I question the area around me and its definition

I have my air pack unlimited with the breath of life
But I’m still anticipating the inevitable pressure surrounding me
Some choose to cut through to alleviate via the knife
When self harm eradicates any form of personal healing

I strategize each plot without truly knowing what I got
It’s tough to see what all is floating by as I go through
The current has me tightly engulfed whisking by glorious spots
I notice some rot within, but pleased at the capability of becoming new

Replenishing each memory of satisfiable moral standing
I’m left wondering which of those aspects is left existing
Hard to find as much in this world of violence, pain, and sorrow
I’m surrounded by this foreign earth, with hopes of a better tomorrow

I’m embedded deep with the one who has the greatest presence
Yet face a crowd of rejection through various injections of dissonance
It’s hard to save that which doesn’t want to be helped with aid
Though the grave is looming beneath despite whatever it is you are paid

I’m submerged in this ocean of fantasy, trying to gasp at the graces of reality
My spirituality has me lifted as each day I awake is one that is gifted
I’m still surprised at the eyes of beauty, which leads so many to lives of tragedy

Seeking what you don’t have because of want
Doesn’t fulfill the needs that pull you out of this liquid
Going about life in a manner that is nonchalant
Won’t get you to that paradise of greatness you once depicted

Abyss

Have you ever felt locked away, no doors
No room at all for your mind to soar
Hidden away, pitch black… wanting more

Left with more questions than answers
Not really knowing what’s out there
All while trying to decipher the enclosure

Many are trapped in similar places
Depressed within, but smiling faces
No signs of suicidal thoughts or cases

When in reality they are looking for an out
Constantly focused on all of their doubts
Not allowing themselves an escape throughout

Quite sad to know that this is all too common
These days more than ever you hear it happenin’
All seeming fine until the most unexpected action

Never give up on others nor yourself
Reach out, spread hope, and share positive health

Recourse

When I awoke all I felt was pain
Debris and destruction all around me
I opened my eyes slowly, vision regained
Difficult to move, but I began to breathe

I looked around, I’m indeed still alive
The wake of war at my sides
I see lights flashing, feel tremors
Laying there wondering what will come of this endeavor

I feel the need to get up and proceed
It is then I hear a voice pleasant and serene
She encourages me to rise to my feet
I look down to see myself torn and bloody

My consciousness regained I’m still confused
Why is it that I’m here, what am I suppose to do
Working my way through the smoke and distress
More voices begin to enter my head

I can’t make out what is being said
All jumbled together, I begin to forget
I try to obtain sight on my surroundings
Fire, smoke, sparks, and light are all too hindering

The one voice comes through again with clear distinction
Gets me to venture in a particular direction
I finally see an exit to get out of this rubble
But I’m still moving slowly with great trouble

Moving ever closely to the doorway, I trip and fall
Landing down on my chest gasping for breath
Where is this location, it isn’t in my memory at all
I being to try once again to elevate, but the pain reaches new depths

I close my eyes once again drifting away
The heat continues to build as my mind fades
I then feel a slight breeze wash over me
Which provides me with a new sense of energy

I once again try to stand, but simply can’t
I crawl toward the door that is still visibly encouraging
As it approaches my grasp, I’m unsure how long I’ll last
I take a second to look back and see the results of my hemorrhaging

My breaths are slow and vision blurry
The feeling of pain has me slipping into a dark shock
I reach out just in time to feel the knob
A pulse occurs reinvigorating my stamina

Eyes wide open, mind sharp, and strength restored
It is then I throw open the door, just to see no floor
I see stars and a galaxy of beauty, all further confusing
The voice re-enters my mind to step out willingly

As I exit the struggle out into the abyss
Control is lost and I begin a free fall
The lights flashing by me, I’m still in awe of this
I turn over to look back up where I exited, it’s vanished no sign of walls

The voices pick up again as I begin to acquire a fresh feel
The falling stops as my body comes to rest
I feel bolts of energy coursing around me as if I’m healed
The area too bright for my eyes to take, so I do what’s best

It is as if I’m hovering now, relocating to a safer place
I lie there motionless as if I am in a form of restraints
Silence commences as the levitation begins
A shockwave strikes through my chest reinvigorating the thoughts in my head

I’m left puzzled at the events that are unfolding
This doesn’t seem like anything anyone has ever told me
The silence is slowly going away as what I can hear varies
A few beeps and a heart that is pounding

My lungs expanding, what is this experience
At the moment of that thought I begin to feel a kiss
That kiss reverberates the essence of recovery through my body
Control has seemed to now come back to me

I lay there and the serene voice speaks once more
This time it is clearer than it was before
I can depict what it is that is actually being relayed
My surroundings normalize as “I love you” embraces my brain

I open my eyes to see a beautiful face within the light
Smiling brightly with tears running down her cheek
“You’re alive” she says, as our eyes lock tightly
I then realized the journey had meaning as my chances were bleak

Struggle

Pent up in our own situations
Not looking out to the nations
Grasp tightly at our innovations
Without focusing much on relations

Many self centered, the focus on one
Aggravated and deliberately inebriated
To drown out all their senses for fun
Engaged and enraged because they don’t feel appreciated

Screaming for help in silence
A masquerade alone in a dark place
Entranced in their own internal violence
To weary to pursue a new space

So discouraged to find happiness
The demons that they battle
Mistake after mistake is made, becoming countless
Lashing out having others feel rattled

Caught up in this sense of self
Slowly fading away from hope
Ignoring the aid of others to get health
Continuing with blurry vision within life’s scope

Wake up to the fact you’re under attack
Don’t hide away in your weakness
Move forward and take your life back
Recognize that there is indeed a proper treatment

Pain will always come without choice
The method in which it affects you
Is where you will always have a voice
Choose to overcome in all that you do

Look out over the vast array
There are similar problems others face
You aren’t alone here today
Step out of that turmoil and allow yourself grace

Nobody has all the answers
Despite the many questions
The word is true of the Father
Invest in a relationship with the one who has no sin

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