Uncertainty

Everyone’s heart achin’ as the outcome looks shakin’
When one suffers, it hits us all the same
There is always an end in sight, that’s not mistaken
But you never want to see someone go in pain

Centered in the dilemma of what life is
Diseases that seem to avoid a solidified cure
An unfortunate reality when it strikes like this
Putting tragedy into the present to obstruct the future

All the memories swirl as to what was in the past
Leading up to these events it all seems mad
Time seems to continue to go by extremely fast
There doesn’t seem to be a pause, not even a tad

Everything in motion, the end comes closer
One of the sad realities that becomes known
With more loss comes more wisdom as you grow older
It just never gets any easier from what these experiences have shown

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Memoirs

Thinking over the memoirs
As I look up into the stars
I feel all the old scars
With hope still shining afar

All the tragedy, insanity, and calamity
With each breath there’s intensity
Draining quickly all my energy
What’s left of me is in jeopardy

What this world does is blasphemous
And the ways of it aren’t at all prestigious
The declarations being made aren’t religious
Because most claiming it are instead venomous

The destruction is of our own doing
Hatred instead of love is accruing
That pressure of us lost in our own things
Is what’s keeping us from the grace we should be experiencing

Dimensional

All this time that’s passed me by
I question the effort that I’ve tried
To really be someone who stands out
To be someone who can conquer the doubts
Being there for someone else in a time of need
Without them feeling as if I’m doing it for greed
The society has shifted to taint perceptions of charity
Doing something just to help without an attachment to money
Many feel you expect something in return if you give
Why is it no longer just acceptable to be positive in how you live
With all the people crying out, they shouldn’t be put down in shame
They’re only human at the end of the day
Life is serious we can’t overlook the responsibility
The purpose to truly utilize our unique individual personalities
Perfection is something that many are out there to seek
Little do they know that chase is what makes them weak

Fighter’s Spirit

Some identify as a lover or a fighter
We can fight many things heavy or lighter
As the darkness grows and time passes
Death is one thing certain for the masses
No matter the difference of opinion
That time will come to end the mission
There are many things to prepare for
We do our best to achieve more
Slow and steady may win the race
However it can be tough to keep a smile on the face
As trials and tribulations persist
It can prevent success appearing on the list
Our plans don’t always come to fruition
No matter the amount of education
We embrace different things
We witness different beginnings
Nothing wrong with fighting for love
Trying to continue to rise above
Battling the many adversaries can be rough
But without testing how can we become tough
The motivation to move on isn’t always there
Many lose the drive to continue to care
Life isn’t fair we all know this
But we still strive to experience bliss
Fighting the physical can be detrimental
But fighting the spiritual is monumental
Whatever comes your way and proclaims war
Do your best to conquer and roar
Don’t stay silent waiting to die
There’s a reason we’re given a lifetime
Find and fulfill the purpose
Because fearing death isn’t worth it

View

Everyone around me with their life changin’
I look in the mirror only to find similar situations
Nothing new just a stagnant race
While others continue to put smiles on their face

People getting married and having babies
Others finding good careers or graduating
I remember the days where it seemed ok
The ones where I was progressing each day

I’ve been the centerpiece to a lot of discussion
Helping people with a bit of encouragement
They needed advice so they didn’t think twice
About the doubt that could sometimes cloud their minds

I know that with each day I’m blessed
With all the successes and happiness I’ve witnessed
Just seems that it all has been lost in time
As I sit here continuing to analyze

Where has it all gone
Where in the cycle do I hop back on
This adventure never ceases to amaze
What will tomorrow do to bring change

Pressure

This year slips through my fingertips
With regret of what I should do growing thick
Time is highly effective on ones perspective
Time is an enemy that always wins

The repetition involved waking up each day
What is it that you do to stay sane
Another moment has passed
And another memory cemented fast

It’s easy to get caught up in thought
Distraction though can leave one distraught
Looking for the future in the past
Isn’t something that’s proven to be steadfast

The matters of the heart being untapped
With the matters of the mind keeping me trapped
Each time the clock ticks I could collapse
Knowing that there is plenty to do in order to fill the gaps

Time Warp

They awake to find a change
Was it something of fate or destiny
Left waiting, their goal is in range
Never give up building a legacy

You dream, wish, and hope
That you reach your goals
Instead of slipping down a treacherous slope
But without hard work, that vision may fold

Motivation and dedication need to arise in this nation
Away from the greed and explicitly placed aggravation
When did this culture formulate such sadistic views
Operated by the public or just following what the media wants you to do

Social networking can be just fine
But many have lost themselves, making it their shrine
In due time many will soon whine
Wondering where the time went as it quickly passes them by

Look at your loved ones in this moment
Make your memories something that was chosen
Appreciate that which you take for granted
Because it can be taken away at any given second

Dimension

It’s hard to live out the future
When you’re stuck in the past
Hoping to elude the torture
You hold onto the goodness, hoping it lasts

All the memories you recollect
Reminiscing about love and joy
Smiling ear to ear as you reflect
Wishing one day those times could redeploy

Each day brings a challenge
Some we least expect
Our temperament remains unbalanced
When our mind drifts from the present

Fixate on the importance of today
Be the change you wish to see
Lock into a goal without delay
So you can once again become happy

Ten Years

Hard to believe it’s been ten years
I remember being asked where I saw myself in five
Back then it all seemed so clear
I achieved my goal of graduating college to thrive
Little did I know I’d get ill before a career

Flash forward to now, six years after
My oldest nephew is finishing high school and my health is improved
I’m proud to see him finish up this chapter
He’s had some rough times, but he’s still pushing through

This time of reflection to see where I once was
To see now where he is, it’s all a whirlwind
Because the focus will be now on what he does
As my role is reversed from being the uncertain kid, to the adult providing direction

He has had his ups and downs personally
While dealing with hardships and trials
It hasn’t been an easy task for him to experience all the adversity
But he has managed to progress, giving the rest of us all smiles

I’ve been proud to be an Uncle since his birth
It’s given me more purpose and self worth
It’s been a title I’ve had for the majority of my time
And it isn’t one I ever plan to leave behind

Soon his grade school experience comes to an end
Ten years after mine had from the same establishment
Such a unique time to be involved in this celebration
I hope he too will continue to push forward toward a purposeful destination

Disparity

I feel as if I’m missing something
You said one thing, but act another
What is it that you’re really meaning
Am I distant from you or close like a brother

Confused with the notion in which you speak
Excited and love to see me, but have plans deterring
Parasitic it seems to me, like a one way street
Not much reciprocation in the effort of the meet we’re referring

I’m closed up at the aspect of going forward
The future holds uncertainty and our past plenty
What does the present define if there isn’t much to look toward
Should we call it quits as we part ways or keep interacting

The answers remain a mystery
The communication a conspiracy
The time falling away empty
The stress of it all unworthy

Would enjoy some clarity
Would appreciate some specificity
Would love some solidarity
Would like if your words and actions had some similarity

Analysis can be tricky
Hard to receive anything other than honesty
Considering I’ve been nothing but truth giving
I know the heart and mind are separate, but where’s the unity

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